Should i stay on this war?

assalamualaikum.

i wish i can be like her. blowing those nonsense things happily and energetic. how happy she are. 

ops don't judge a book by its cover. i never know either this girl happy or not when she blowed those things. seems like she happy blowing that annoyed things. happy that after this no more problems in her life.

am i doing the right decision? for the sake of your happiness. im doing all these silly things just for both of you. 

whatever happened life must be go on. yeh im trying. trying my best for both of you.

im sorry for all my wrongdoings towards you.